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If nothing else, I'm honest to a fault, and usually bare too much than I should. So, with that in mind, I'm not doing well right now.
In truth, I'm at the point of ending it all, Nick's quite worried and frankly, so am I.
Sorry to those that I will disappoint, it seems that I was never that strong to begin with.
Valentine's Day was ok, got the flowers and chocolate deal. Still sunk in this fog tho, it's been a tough ride. Possibly the toughest thing I've ever had to go through.
Nick has the flu again, so I've been playing nursemaid, it gives me purpose. There's not really much happening outside of that. Just really boring and blah, these winter months.
Depression is a crushing thing, it folds you up into a tenth of what you were and chews and bites and gnaws until you start to just fall apart. I haven't fallen apart, but stuck in this thing that I can't get out of.
The great job that I so desperately wanted went to someone else. I would have been perfect for it, but alas they didn't deem me good enough.
The truth of the matter is that I've had enough of Washington and it's depressing 50 days straight of rain and gloom. I want out, but I can't get out.
It just means one other team out of many was better than you.
Depression, Interviews, Arguing with Boy - Rinse, Repeat.
Day after Day.
Be back soon.