IrenicEmbers

...So, I've come to the conclusion that I've got nothing else to say. I've gone through periods like this before where I'm left speechless with what's going on in my life and to protect the innocent, have decided the best thing to say is nothing.

There's no drama this time ... just a lot of introspection. I spent months looking for a job and now that I have one, I don't want it. Imagine that.

Nick and I are doing some talking too, not fighting thankfully enough. Just talking and trying to decide what we want (translation: what I want) out of our relationship.

The thing with Maggie (best friend) is breaking me apart and I need to get over my anger about not being there for her and calling and trying to be supportive as much as possible.

And, while I never started doing this for the daily visitors (total of about 5 per day), I realized that I'm better off writing in my journal when I'm the only reader. I never did need an audience for anything and the feedback that I get from my minor postings ... well... nevermind.

Also, I cannot spend most of the commute thinking up witty entries (about the lyrics behind 70s music) and never write about them. I mainly think about those things to keep myself awake during the commute anyway.

So, that's it for now. I'll still visit your sites and comment and enjoy what you have to say. I'm just rendered speechless by my own life right now. :-)

Posted by IrenicEmbers at 03:07 PM | Permalink | Comments (3)

Having a sucky morning means that after a night of playing WoW, you barely crawl out of bed late, rushing through the morning routine, rushing towards the highway ... seeing the Traffic Advisory Board sign say "15 minutes (to your desitination)" and right under the sign begins the parking lot of cars moving barely 1mph begins. The drive normally runs 30 minutes, so seeing the 15 minutes gave me such hope.

Argh! I really need to get some damn sleep. I've been about 5 minutes late to work every morning for the past 3 days. Albeit I don't have to be here until 8:30 because I'm in training ... I still like to show up at 8am. So, technically, I'm not late ...

So effing glad it's Friday.

Posted by IrenicEmbers at 08:20 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)

If nothing else, the morning commute has gotten me thinking. My latest thought is all about relationships. The way I see it, is that if you get in a relationship and it's all hot and heavy at the beginning it's almost destined to peter out sooner rather than later. Some of the most long-lasting relationships may be the one that starts off slowly and builds over time.

But then again, I've only been in 2 "real" realtionships, the one I'm in and another one when I was too immature to deal with it.

After watching Nick get frustrated time and time again this weekend trying to put a shelf for the computer keyboard in ... I just looked at him and asked myself "What in hell did I get myself into?" But it was more of a good feeling ... like "Oh my god does he get cute when his face is all red and he's pissed off." Don't ask why.

Later on, my thoughts on my afternoon commute ... can't you just wait?!?

Posted by IrenicEmbers at 08:14 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)